Broken Heart......

Being in Love with you,is what she sees,
can't u know,how does she feels,
so much pain,is what she has to gain,
with you having,much self constraint.

Knowing you,has made her fly,
Findin new world, above the sky,
She seems so happy,can't you see,
Is it so hard,to make it real?

Oh boy,Oh dear,what do u fear?,
She's got all that you need,more than a peer,
Problems arise,human's nature,
Just take it,your another venture..

Sayin things,seem simple,
Going Through, has so much ample,
All i ask,is for a chance,
to see the both of you,in a lasting glance.

If this is too much of me,i'm truly sorry,
'cz what's been goin' on,make me worry,
boy,feelin the pain with so much chase,
could things in future,has more grace?

You truly are, a jewel of a guy,
I swear to you,im not a lie,
When i see comfort shine so fine,
Doesn't she suppose to have,better than mine?

Broken heart never really heals,
It just cures,like takin'in pills,
What has happen,doesn't return,
All u could do,is make things more soothen.


Love you and "you"..

Beauty of Love..

Would i be remembered,as time to come,
surpasin' my time of glory,heading new century,
Once i'm gone,burried under a tomb,
What would reflect,the presence of my born?

How could i,judge the beauty of your eyes,
so pure,so true,no lie of lies,
the sanity and the word it's speakes,
say's more than the ocean , preakes.

The age to come,would not agree...
"How could such heavenly touches, feel 'd earthly faces"?
So here i am,paper's yellowin'through time...
The only prove i'hv,that you'r so divine..

Your sanity,as no words to preak..
'tHey live as long as an antique song..
You'r one person alive, that meets no die...
'cz u live in time and in my rhyme...

p/s->a poem invoked by "Sonnet 17"

Bleedin' Soul...

Bleedin' soul is what i feel,when the arrow of love struck's into my heart.Not knowin' y..Probably,'cz of the bad experienced i have been through...Well,i'd believe,that as time passes,pain heals and knowledge increase...I have alwiz thought that a women should only have "one man in her life"...:) jUst i'd realized,i' have been a hipokrit'for my own thinkin'..not that i have fallen in love once again'...
"i'm not sure"....very much puzzled in my own world
Let me ask u my dear reader,
Share with me,your very own opinion'...
What would you do,if one fine day,u'd realized that u could not eventually live,not being able to meet that one special person,that you wanna be with...
Well,that special person,gives you nothin more but a simple smile that brighten's ur day...with much more colours that 'd rainbow itself.How sweet can my words say,more sweeter it is,to be in..Im not sure,if im the only want feelin' it differently...Extracting he's care towards me,in a different way...The care that i'll alwiz wanted.."Why do i alwiz feel,we r alone,even if there are people around us..feel,like the world seems to go on,just for u and me"->How i wish,could i ask him these questions....He doesn't know how to show,the love he has in store...but he's presence and touch says it all....NO PHYSICAL touch...NO ROMANCE at all...Let me be clear to u my dear reader,it's only me feelin' this way....No touch or romance have bloomed this in me...He's being purely true of he's sincerity towards me,of the relationship we r being in...Friendship....A word,that know's no boundary's of expression...Matter of fact,i'd realized from the very first day...i'm not he's type...well,thousands of reasons to reject me,none for him,as for me....hmm,everythin' seems to be riddle to me...shall i confess,shall i not....how could i put my guts together and approach love once again???i may look bold and strong,..i'm not..well,many things that he makes me feel..hard to say...makes me feel good,drives the motive in me,that i should take things more easily in life.best of all,i feel the women in me..well,never felt like this before...so uncomfortable,'bout something that i never knew could happen to me,'cz of him...expressing my feelin's might just ruined my relation with him...it doesn't matter if this doesn't go far,but how if....this is the end of our conversation.....sleepless night im goin' through... Tell me,my dear reader.....What would you do,to live love in your friendship??? How do u think positively can this go on'?How bout the consequences you might face??? Sharing your opinions is what i'm in need....

p;s-->a great thought that pop-'d up in my mind...just a thought..

ReM3mB3r 'd DaY

brOk3n hEarT....Is what i fe3l...
'cz the pain in m3,DoEsn'T waNna hEaL...
I tRi3d hArD,aNd ReaLly hArD...
It nEvER WoRkED,But jUst tOr3 M3 aPArt...

tOok me yEarS,to gEt yOu oFf ma mInd..
Not rEaLIziNG,I wAS TotaLly bLinD...
bLiNDeD wItH yOur KinDnEsS...
wHAtmOr3 fOR yOUr sWeETNeSs....

kNowin' yOu waS A fAntAsY,
'cz yOu w3re mY dReaM'd EcStacY....
a EcStacY Of Lov3....
tHAt dReW Me,Lik3 a FrEe dOv3...

u Mad3 Me Fe3l, lIk3 iT wAS foR rEaL...
So rEal...beFoRe i kN3W,It Was JuSt anOth3r rEeL...
I wAsN't afRaiD,Of nOt haVin'yOu...
'Cz i aLwIz kN3W...I wAsn'T FoR YoU....

BeIng Ur fRi3nD,Is aNotHer tReNd,
oF a GuY & gaL,That cAN't bE -hANd-In hAnd...
How WaS I tO KnOw,i'm Not Ur kInD...
I WaS tOtaLlY dRoWn'D iN th3 Man KinD..

i'M noT sUrE,If tHiS Fe3Lin' wOuLD gO On..
ThOuGh i kNOw,iT ShOuLd haV3 LoNg aGo GoN3...
DoN't uNd3r EsTiMat3 ThIs LoV3 Of miN3..
i CaN ASsUrE YoU,It's pUreLy dIViN3...

LovIng yOu wAs In IncReDiBle...
'Cz mY Lov3 FoR YoU,MAdE M3 fE3L SPeCiaL...
sP3CiAL In a Way,
tHaT I'lL AlWiz rEm3mb3r 'd Day...

Remote Of Your Life...

What would yOu say,to a remote control,that takes you back to ur past,
memories and past moments that you wished to re-gain....
a remote that could bring you back to your childhood memories...
a phase of life,that less problems we faced....
All....with just one click......
What would yOu say,to a remote control,that brings the future right to you,
fame,popularity and status standard that you might have in future,
who knows?or probably the opposite?
A remote that we wished,at all times....
to get rid 'd waves of obstacles we face.....

What would you say,to a remote that controls your life,
just the way you want it to be....
a remote that could control your mom's naggin, and dad's restrictions...
a remote that brings you only the happiness of life,and not obstacles...
a remote that brings you only the high's,and not the low's...
a remote that could control the facts of life.....and life itself...
A remote that remote's you...Remote of Your Life...

Something for those,who thinks the way 'd remote does..

Life is all beyond the man's control....
'we come,'we live the life,'and wait for the "call"...
not knowin' from the beginning,what life holds for us'...
not knowin' how interesting life could be,
when we were brought to this world...
but what amazes 'd man kind the most,is not knowin'....
the surprises of life.......

As in my opinion',life would not be an entertaining journey,
if all are moves could be planned,
Life would not be exiciting,
if future could be brought to u right the way u want it...
Life would definetely not worth living,
if part of it being wasted reviewing our past memories...
I could definetely not live a life,like this....

Something to think bout,
everyone of us,wished at times,to have a fast forward button in our life's....
even me,million's of time,i have wished...
but today,i have just realized....
i would not wanna interupt the way God has planned my life,
'cz for all i know,i would and i might miss out the best things in my life....
Living life the way it is....a great thrill...a great journey...

p/s:->inspired from the movie "THE CLICK"....a movie worth watching...

"Stand Up for Ur Rightz"

Hey guyz,sorry 'bout not writing in this blog for quite num.of days...didn't have time for my self....Well,i just realized that working,can't be that pleasant to u,even though it's just a training.... If ther's one thing that i can learn truly from this workin environment would be,the multiple personalities of a human that i meet....

Everyday,i wake up thinkin' and hoping that, the day would be an exciting journey for me....
wishin' everythin' goes on well, smooth workin'....no problematics codes....happy moments...
Well,most of the time,it is....not alwiz'.....
I tend to realize,it's not easy to treat people around me, they way i want it to be...
yeah,definetely with respect of course.........but not someone i can really talk comfortly...
Why???'till today,it has been the 3rd month of my training.....
I still dont get it,why people are different at uni-and at work.....Isn't that the people who'm graduate are the people who work,later on....so,why is ther a major change in attitudes???
Why is ther' discremination of rank's.?even though we r in 'd 21st century....
does the paper note decides,humanity?....
the more paper notes u have,the more respect people tend to give...
wher does the sanity of human,lies???
People at work, at times.....tend to under estimate the capability we have.....
some brainless,tend to get up ur head....makin the hell out of you....not realizing....
after all,you are a human too..................

On3 'H3Ll"of persOnALitY,tHat i'm bEin' wiTh nOw.....

how can "he" eva think,that i'm as smart or intellectually same as him...?
i'm suppose to have known things,that i didn't learn before....and i'm suppose to not make mistakes at all.....after all..........i'm just a student still...
i'm not trying to gain' sympathy at my work ..... puttin'on the tag 'i'm a student'
don't give in even a 'lil space to people,to under-estimate you-->'that's what i feel"...
but hey....................that's the fact after all.........
wasn't he a student as well....??


sometimes,i wonder....was it nice to get pranky on someone younger???
even though i don't have to suck-up to he's toe...'cz',i still have humanity in me...after all,what i do in the outer-world,reflects the way i'd been brought up...
everyone has their own way of controllin'emotions....but one should not let it go,at the stake of humaliting another.....never did i say,i didn't do such...
i'd realized i'have been like that,at one point,and gettin' it back now,from someone i'd regret knowin'....is terrible....yeah.."what goes round-definetely comes around"...
Life is a cycle.................
hMm....i can go on,with my dissatisfactions....everyone has it,i guess....
For those who feels the same way...
"Stand uP for Ur Rights".......

"Wake Me Up When September Ends"

Life...
A journey,that makes you think...
I have alwiz' wondered,
Why do life seems to be filled with boredom at times,
Fun,Entertainment,Friends,Hang-out's-nothing could be felt....
Just plain boredom,they way i'm feelin' right now...
Sittin' down,at the corner of my room,just like this lil' gurl,wondering...
Where this boredom,leads me to.....

Industrial Training/Better known of @ Work...
A daily routine im forced into, that i don't wish to go through....
How could i be happy,when my day starts at 7,and i need to rush to work...
At work.....pressure,multi-task,quiet environment,
with everyone mindin' their own work..
You tend,to think......."Don't these people,have life"?
Work ends at 5.30....rushing back home,thinkin' of getting some rest,
but all u know,it turns out dark ....
so soon,that sometimes u realize,
you dont have time to catch up with uR family,
time to chat, crack humuors,time to chill in front of Tv...
the next thing that waits for ur arrival,would be the bed,
'cz the same routine life,starts the next day........what a Life?

Not being sul-kish,just wondering
even though i don't like what im going through now....i'd Realized..
This is my future...,
i know things dont come in a easy way,everythin' needs a deed....
well,all i'm asking for... is a lil' more spice in this boredom i'm going through....
The only thing' im looking forward,is the month of november...
the joy,the happiness in my life,will be re-gained....my university buddies....
the colours of my life....that brings me out to the heaven....
fun,laughter,colours............just dont know what to say.....
Fun we have,can't be tread in with nethin',just too much of happiness.
being gifted with loads of soulmates...

I'm missing all the colours in my life for a long time now......
all i need is a good sleep...and buddy,please don't forget, to........
"Wake me Up,when September ends"...
Love You Guyz.......